Do you ever play the “What if__?” game? I have and do often. Today is no exception. “If I hadn’t gone to the farmer’s market when I knew I was hurting yesterday, my pressure sore wouldn’t look so bad.”
Yesterday. Saturday. The one day each week Earl and I try to get out together. One thirty minute trek was not the cause, but it sure played out that way in both our minds.
Complete bed rest and daily bed baths will continue for a long time to come.
If I hadn’t had the wreck. If I’d been more cautious. If I…
Then I go to “Why?” And you know where that goes. Still, I cry. “Haven’t Earl and I had enough, Lord?”
Now on Sunday morning, Earl prays healing for my sore and goes to church alone. I wonder how he does it—preach the Good News. I know the Holy Spirit fills him, speaks through him, and strengthens him. I pray that over him every night and by his example, I am encouraged.
I’m reminded of the banner I received twenty-three years ago and my reaction to it. “He who began a good work in you will carry it on to completion until the day of Christ Jesus” (Philippians 1:6 NIV). “What good can come out of this?” I asked.
I know God is making me more like Jesus. Living for Christ isn’t easy. His desire may seem too much for my mortal body. Yet, I strive for perfection in His calling and look forward to putting on my immortality.
I pray God will continue to use me in all circumstances.
“Consider it pure joy, my brothers and sisters, whenever you face trials of many kinds, because you know that the testing of your faith produces perseverance. Let perseverance finish its work so that you may be mature and complete, not lacking anything” (James 1:2-4 NIV).